Try as
the devil might,
Ramen
had him at, "Who the hell are you? Anyway, moving on and out of my
way"
V was
rejoicing in his woman's bad girl game on and..
All
the while her therapist continued to strengthen her tolerance level to boost
her morale
12pm, Monday, towards end of June 2017.
"This young woman is an uncrackable nut if what she says is true. There is so much conviction with which she speaks her truth that I feel like there is a possibility she may be a victim to illegal spying. After all, these days’ parents have secret cameras in their children's rooms so there is a huge possibility, understanding her capabilities, her relatives may be out to destroy her emotionally. To find out, I'll monitor her but even before I do that, I choose to be on her side."
Ramen was in Dr. Mrinal Jain's clinic, sitting on a patent black leather comforter, across from her.
The walls were beige, a welcoming color of rejuvenation and covered in paintings of deities and Tigers, a customary flower vase at the side of the table with halogen lamps for hypnosis and other vital tools for cognitive diagnosis and therapy. The cool hues of beige walls in contrast with black and red interiors were mood lifters and relaxing.
Ramen had confided her doubts of being illegally tracked by her relatives and did not yet told her the whole truth. She couldn't risk losing her confidence as a therapist if she told her about what had started in college. She stuck with current facts of being disturbed in regular intervals that followed her every movement at home which made the shock effect of the crime to her more susceptible to emotional vulnerability.
Dr Mrinal Jain had loved the girl the moment she had entered through the door whispering a mannered, "May I come in Doctor?"
Ramen looked well bred and was articulate with a distinct clarity of thought that made it impossible for her to diagnose her ill or disturbed. She looked and behaved just fine. In fact, better than fine. Mrinal decided to see her couple of more times not to diagnose her but because there was in fact a criminal possibility in these dark politically loose times in India.
Having decided to monitor and keep her mental health in check by boosting her confidence and treating her common depression with EFT, Dr Mrinal said, "Ramen, my dear, listen to me very carefully. This advice is not only pertinent to your current situation, but for life. Now listen and introspect wholeheartedly to what I have for you-Become so mentally strong that you become a jawbreaker eternally."
Ramen looked confused and mentally fragile at hearing that so she said, "I become what doctor?"
Dr, "Become a Jawbreaker for life."
Ramen, "I don't think I have it in me Doctor. I feel broken."
Dr Mrinal gently but assertively repeated the advice, "You have to. You've very little choice. By jawbreaker I mean, if this crime is really happening, you and I don't know how long it might take to prove it. I would suggest, strengthen yourself instead. A lot of self care, do what makes you happy, work, work and work so much that your work becomes your meditation. You said you blog right? Do you find passion in that?"
Ramen lit up at that and said, "Yes", with honest conviction and continued, "It's my thing you know, blogging. I don't feel like I am working when I think about story ideas and wake up in the middle of the night to ideate about reels, vlogs and social media copies. Blog books are another of my thing."
Dr Mrinal, "That's great. Mail me some of your work tonight. Now back to how to become a jawbreaker. By self care I mean a lot of affirmations and prayers with a lot of focus on work and ignoring the background noise. If you don't think about the problem as a trauma, you're halfway already there to slap the bastards in the face with your vehemence. Work will keep you focused and self care like lamp therapy will relieve your anxiety. How old are you?"
Ramen, "I am 25."
Dr, "Do you have a boyfriend?"
Ramen wanted to laugh at that question and confide in this beautiful mentor that she was in fact married off to a witch last night but she composed herself and said, "I think I may have someone in my life but it's not like we talk yet."
Dr Mrinal hid her smile knowing perfectly well that women like Ramen were never single. So she benigned her little sweet lies and got to the second advice, "Ramen, darling, listen, Work and love are the only two things that you need to focus on because work is meditation and pure love is energy you live for. I repeat work and love, lots of self care and prayers. Lamp therapy is luxury and throw in some aroma therapy in regular intervals. Lastly, to become a jawbreaker of your enemies, don't give them the satisfaction of disturbing you by completely ignoring their negativity. Apna jeev maa lava nu aj nathi. Eloko na karam, eloko nu dharam. You will only work and love yourself going forward."
Ramen felt 10x better with just being around her and the priceless advice she was giving her. She said smoothly, "To becoming a jawbreaker doc. See you next Monday."
With that Ramen left the clinic feeling super confident and clear headed. She also felt tired since the session was demanding but she needed to inherit her advice by introspecting so she picked a large ice-cream from Bachelors and walked home thinking about her move to combat the crime effortlessly. She knew the bastards would pay eventually but until it was her time, she would totally wing this one.
It was around 4pm when she returned home. It had taken her an hour and 30 minutes to walk back from Chowpatty to Kalbadevi. "God, I have become so lethargic! My speed walk's out for a toss these!"
No sooner than Ramen entered through the front door of her home, did it happen again and she was fully alert. "Ramen, Jawbreaker." Dr.Mrinal's reverberated in her head and she calmed down. Walking past her mother in the kitchen who was washing vegetables for dinner, she wagged her way through her bedroom and crashed in bed.
Ramen lay facing face up, staring wildly at the fan on the ceiling and it happened again. "Jawbreaker." She hid a smirk and put her favorite mantras on her phone and got swayed away with the harmonious rhythm of the jaap and she felt beautiful and normal. Listening to God, she made a soft wish in her head wishing she comes out with flying colors out of this mess and she got up and locked her bedroom to light an agarbatti and rolled one.
7 pm, Monday, End of June 2017.
Pankti called her nomadic daughter on her phone. "Will you have dinner?"
Ramen, "Yes. But I'll help myself later at night so you keep my food in the microwave. I'll heat it later."
Pankti was disheartened with her daughter's curt response and she knew why so she accepted her fate and hung up.
Ramen calmly smoked and thought about a possible story idea for her vlog for tomorrow.
6 rules to break the chain of low self esteem:
- ·
Develop
selflove- Do what makes you happy
- ·
No
bad vibes- Stay away from anyone who is toxic to you
- ·
Build
self confidence- Work till you drop. Follow your passion for that and success
is inevitable.
- ·
Be
kind to yourself and others- Pamper your inner child and pamper the ignorance
you see in others less fortunate than you.
- ·
Help
someone- Volunteer at a shelter, pet a dog or simply fund a child's
education.Basically, charity boosts self love and it help someone so it's a
win-win both ways
- ·
Develop
clarity of thought- Play chess or read a stimulating book every now and
often
Ramen smiled in satisfaction and was ready to look like a natural diva tomorrow before facing the camera after the longest time! It happened and she almost laughed out loud.
It was almost 9pm by the time she got free from ideation and that when her back against the window, she didn't realize when V jumped into the 3rd floor room and back hugged her intimately.
"Ready to break a leg Mrs Agnihotri?"
Ramen kissed his hand on her front and dreamily said, "What for Witchy Witch?"
V gently lifted Ramen off the ground and into his arms and placed her delicately on the bed and slept next to her.
She turned to face him and placing her hand on his chest, she moved forward to kiss him on the lips.
Soon after they washed away into the tides of love and sharing bodies as to unto each other as man and wife. The meadows of the highs and lows of sharing oneness made them slow dance to their sweet orgasms and pure lust of love.
Ramen was deeply submerged with V in their unison and they both reached for the stars as they cooed and echoed their pleasures like wolves calling the moon in the night.
V got
on top of Ray and just looked at him wife with love he didn't know he had in
him. Ramen smiled and they both fell asleep in the gentle light of the star sky
gleaming their approval of them together forever as one.
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